I am writing this knowing that in less than 24 hours my little sister will be the furthest away from me she has been since birth. We were buddies when we were younger with the occasional fights that sisters have. Then in our teen years it was opposite with fights constantly with occasional bouts of friendliness. I am the big sister and took that role with pride.
Rachel, I was there to yell for help when you were 4 years old and chocking on a jaw breaker, there for you when you fell off the jungle gym in elementary school and had to get stitches, there for you through the many break ups and fights with friends and boyfriends, there to back you up when you got a little mouthy but didn’t want to fight, :) there to give you the hymlic maneuver when you were choking on a Jolly Rancher, there to be your Matron of Honor at your wedding, and there for the birth of your children. I want you to know that even with over 2000 miles between us I am still your big sister and will ALWAYS be here for you.
I love you with all my heart and know that this journey in your life will be an amazing one for you, Matt, and the kids.
Life after graduation
Starting in January, I was on a fast paced roll towards graduation and couldn't have been more EXCITED! In my last year (2009-2010) I had a 15 credit fall semester followed by 12 credits worth of Cleps (tests that you can take to test out of a class) over Christmas break and topped that off with a massive 22 credits in the Spring. I felt so on top of my game I was ready to get out there and start my career. About 3 weeks before graduation I started to look for jobs and found quite a few. So I started applying thinking that I would casually do so until graduation was completed. I was told about a job that MIGHT be coming available that would be PERFECT for what I want. Although it won't be available until Aug. or Sept. The person that would be leaving this position said that I had a great chance at it as well. I didn't want to rely on this position only and have it fall through or have something else pass by so I continued on with my job search. Graduation came and went and I have applied for nearly 30 jobs with not 1 interview. Needless to say I was getting pretty down on myself. With looking for jobs daily and not hearing anything back it took a toll on my confidence.
I had to take a big step back and look at the big picture. I am actively searching and trying so why should I be down on myself, it's not like I am not trying. I came to the conclusion that I don't have to look EVERY day, I can look once or twice a week and still be actively looking. I should be happy that I have this time to spend with my kids, not sulking because I haven't heard anything. Maybe this was a sign saying, "HEY! Take a breath, relax and enjoy what you accomplished." SO, I am going to do just that! I am going to sit back and watch my kids enjoy the world around them. There are so many things that I want to do as well. I'm going to take pictures of random stuff, do art, decorate cakes (I have my first wedding cake in a month), and just do all the stuff I wanted to do but kept saying I would when I was done with school.
LET THE ADVENTURES BEGIN!!
I had to take a big step back and look at the big picture. I am actively searching and trying so why should I be down on myself, it's not like I am not trying. I came to the conclusion that I don't have to look EVERY day, I can look once or twice a week and still be actively looking. I should be happy that I have this time to spend with my kids, not sulking because I haven't heard anything. Maybe this was a sign saying, "HEY! Take a breath, relax and enjoy what you accomplished." SO, I am going to do just that! I am going to sit back and watch my kids enjoy the world around them. There are so many things that I want to do as well. I'm going to take pictures of random stuff, do art, decorate cakes (I have my first wedding cake in a month), and just do all the stuff I wanted to do but kept saying I would when I was done with school.
LET THE ADVENTURES BEGIN!!
